...missing fandom...
Thursday, 26 February 2009 01:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
haraamisgood news first:
my most recent fangirl moment as I'm catching up with things...
Tanuma: If only I could see it, too...
Natsume: He's quite the pretty boy, you know
Tanuma: I see, it's a good thing he's not a girl. I would have felt a little bit jealous.
*grins* Now, I know it's not meant like that but, but....^_________^ And I just love Natsume. He makes me feel warm and fuzzy all over.
Skip Beat just gives me one aww-moment after the other when I'm not too caught up wanting to beat some sense into those people. Seriously. XD Can't you just get over yourselves and get together already? ♥ ♥!
I'm also slowly catching up with Gundam 00 (ep. 12) and Macross Frontier (ep. 20)...
All in all, however, I'm kind of missing real fangirling. It's not that there aren't shows I enjoy watching, and I do have aww and omg moments here and there (see above), but it seems like it's been forever since I got really caught up in something that I can squee over, go looking for fanfic/fanart like I have nothing better to do, make up my own stories etc...
The last time I felt really enthusiastic about something fannish was Supernatural, but that was quite a while ago. Now I haven't even watched the most recent episodes of the show, although I still love Sam/Dean. I still read the occasional fanfic (usually HP or SPN), but while I do enjoy it, I rarely get caught up in it the way I used to. Even Natsume, who I totally adore can't make me feel compelled to try and find my way into the fandom.
So, I'm watching other people squee over fandom related things and can't help feeling a little bit lost, because it used to be such a big part of my life, and I really miss the feeling of totally getting into a fandom. There's still liking and love....but no obsessing over and there bloody well SHOULD BE! T_T my life feels incomplete this way.
come back to me, fandom love. please? pretty please? ;_;
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it would cost me about 120 bucks to have it looked at (with NO guarantee that files can be saved) and even if the data could be recovered I would still have to buy a new HD to have the files transferred - so all in all about $250. -.-"
so, even though it hurts, I don't think it's worth the money. I'm looking at 450GB of anime that is lost. or rather, a lot of time and downloading effort that is lost *sigh* I do have some back up on CD/DVD, and I know I can get most of what is gone either from![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
belina or download it again. It's just such a hassle. grrr
T_T there were some rare files on it, though, and if I can't get those back, I might ask if one of you has it and could burn it/send it to me. Of course I'd pay for the cds/dvds and shipping.
Fortunately, I've been keeping a list of all the anime I own and where it's located (fairly up to date, too), so I'm already done checking what is really lost (not pretty, I assure you). Now I'm waiting forbelina to let me know what I can get back from her and then it's going to be hardcore downloading time for me. ^^; internets beware.
my most recent fangirl moment as I'm catching up with things...
Tanuma: If only I could see it, too...
Natsume: He's quite the pretty boy, you know
Tanuma: I see, it's a good thing he's not a girl. I would have felt a little bit jealous.
*grins* Now, I know it's not meant like that but, but....^_________^ And I just love Natsume. He makes me feel warm and fuzzy all over.
Skip Beat just gives me one aww-moment after the other when I'm not too caught up wanting to beat some sense into those people. Seriously. XD Can't you just get over yourselves and get together already? ♥ ♥!
I'm also slowly catching up with Gundam 00 (ep. 12) and Macross Frontier (ep. 20)...
All in all, however, I'm kind of missing real fangirling. It's not that there aren't shows I enjoy watching, and I do have aww and omg moments here and there (see above), but it seems like it's been forever since I got really caught up in something that I can squee over, go looking for fanfic/fanart like I have nothing better to do, make up my own stories etc...
The last time I felt really enthusiastic about something fannish was Supernatural, but that was quite a while ago. Now I haven't even watched the most recent episodes of the show, although I still love Sam/Dean. I still read the occasional fanfic (usually HP or SPN), but while I do enjoy it, I rarely get caught up in it the way I used to. Even Natsume, who I totally adore can't make me feel compelled to try and find my way into the fandom.
So, I'm watching other people squee over fandom related things and can't help feeling a little bit lost, because it used to be such a big part of my life, and I really miss the feeling of totally getting into a fandom. There's still liking and love....but no obsessing over and there bloody well SHOULD BE! T_T my life feels incomplete this way.
come back to me, fandom love. please? pretty please? ;_;
***
it would cost me about 120 bucks to have it looked at (with NO guarantee that files can be saved) and even if the data could be recovered I would still have to buy a new HD to have the files transferred - so all in all about $250. -.-"
so, even though it hurts, I don't think it's worth the money. I'm looking at 450GB of anime that is lost. or rather, a lot of time and downloading effort that is lost *sigh* I do have some back up on CD/DVD, and I know I can get most of what is gone either from
belina or download it again. It's just such a hassle. grrrT_T there were some rare files on it, though, and if I can't get those back, I might ask if one of you has it and could burn it/send it to me. Of course I'd pay for the cds/dvds and shipping.
Fortunately, I've been keeping a list of all the anime I own and where it's located (fairly up to date, too), so I'm already done checking what is really lost (not pretty, I assure you). Now I'm waiting for
belina to let me know what I can get back from her and then it's going to be hardcore downloading time for me. ^^; internets beware.
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Date: Thursday, 26 February 2009 12:56 pm (UTC)Und mach nich das ganze Internet leer! :)
Ah ich hab das gleiche gedacht bei der Natsume/Tanuma Szene hihi. Endlich ist Tanuma mal wieder aufgetaucht.
Yay Gundam!
Vielleicht brauchst du n neues Fandom was dich begeistert? Im Merlin fangirl boot ist auf jeden fall noch Platz XD
HI! :D ♥
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Date: Friday, 27 February 2009 11:57 am (UTC)*smooch* Danke! Ich werd vielleicht darauf zurückkommen... ^^;
Vielleicht brauchst du n neues Fandom was dich begeistert? Im Merlin fangirl boot ist auf jeden fall noch Platz XD
*grins* Mit der Antwort hatte ich bereits gerechnet. XD XD Das neue Fandom ist aber nicht das Problem... Ich vermiss ja nicht unbedingt die alten Fandoms per se, sondern ich kann mich irgendwie nicht mehr für irgendwas Neues total begeistern. Und das geht mir ab. T_T *clings*
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Date: Friday, 27 February 2009 12:15 pm (UTC)AH aber du weißt ja erst ob dich was begeistert wenn du es ausprobierst. DU KANNST ES JA WENIGSTENS GUCKEN.
Aber ich versteh schon was du meinst, ich hatte das ja auch ne zeitlang aber im Moment *hust* eher nicht. XD
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Date: Saturday, 28 February 2009 10:30 am (UTC)*knuddel!*
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Date: Thursday, 26 February 2009 01:06 pm (UTC)I love anime and watch a ton of it, but I'm not into fandoms much any more. I'm lucky that I get enough squee from my flist. I don't really have to go looking for more than that.
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Date: Friday, 27 February 2009 12:00 pm (UTC)I just really miss that almost physical feeling of totally being in love with a fandom/character/pairing... oh well, it might come back when I least expect it. ^_^
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Date: Thursday, 26 February 2009 01:57 pm (UTC)I'll check your list tonight after the stupid Kolloquium and the following thing if I'm not coming home too late. ^_^;
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Date: Friday, 27 February 2009 08:50 pm (UTC)There's one HP plottage I'd really like to share, but it's more of a concept than a plot. and with any luck it'll be a one-shot, well maybe a very long one but no more epics! >_
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Date: Saturday, 28 February 2009 10:31 am (UTC)*SMOOCH!*
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Date: Thursday, 26 February 2009 08:00 pm (UTC)That really sucks about the hardrive. Hopefully something will come along that will really make you squee again.
I love your icon.
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Date: Friday, 27 February 2009 12:07 pm (UTC)*iconlove*
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Date: Friday, 27 February 2009 12:49 am (UTC)i'm still in GW squeeland, though only fangirl with the other fangirls (especially when we happen to get together). but, your post and talk of fandom love reminds me that i have a story to finish... and even though i keep thinking of it from time to time, i still have yet to finish it.
*snugs*
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Date: Friday, 27 February 2009 01:02 pm (UTC)*grins* I actually just recently thought about that story and how I'd really like to see it finished. ^_~ Let me know if you need input/encouragement/bribing...*smirks*
*chu!*
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Date: Friday, 27 February 2009 11:48 pm (UTC)so, mid-march or so, i'm hoping the next part will be done. but, don't hold your breath. seems i can't keep writing promises these days.
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Date: Saturday, 28 February 2009 10:33 am (UTC)*snuggleloves* good luck with the writing and the costume making! ♥!
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Date: Friday, 27 February 2009 05:40 pm (UTC)Last week it was Ulquiorra.
That release was just feeding too many of my fetisches all at once to be ignored... XD
This week it's the Ishida/Orihime moment.
I tell ya, he's sooo in love with her. And she doesn't notice, of course. ^^
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Date: Sunday, 1 March 2009 06:15 am (UTC)Mew.
When to chat? Google or AIM? *snoogles!*
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