haraamis | ...missing fandom...

good news first:

my most recent fangirl moment as I'm catching up with things...

Tanuma: If only I could see it, too...
Natsume: He's quite the pretty boy, you know
Tanuma: I see, it's a good thing he's not a girl. I would have felt a little bit jealous.

*grins* Now, I know it's not meant like that but, but....^_________^ And I just love Natsume. He makes me feel warm and fuzzy all over.

Skip Beat just gives me one aww-moment after the other when I'm not too caught up wanting to beat some sense into those people. Seriously. XD Can't you just get over yourselves and get together already? ♥ ♥!

I'm also slowly catching up with Gundam 00 (ep. 12) and Macross Frontier (ep. 20)...

All in all, however, I'm kind of missing real fangirling. It's not that there aren't shows I enjoy watching, and I do have aww and omg moments here and there (see above), but it seems like it's been forever since I got really caught up in something that I can squee over, go looking for fanfic/fanart like I have nothing better to do, make up my own stories etc...

The last time I felt really enthusiastic about something fannish was Supernatural, but that was quite a while ago. Now I haven't even watched the most recent episodes of the show, although I still love Sam/Dean. I still read the occasional fanfic (usually HP or SPN), but while I do enjoy it, I rarely get caught up in it the way I used to. Even Natsume, who I totally adore can't make me feel compelled to try and find my way into the fandom.

So, I'm watching other people squee over fandom related things and can't help feeling a little bit lost, because it used to be such a big part of my life, and I really miss the feeling of totally getting into a fandom. There's still liking and love....but no obsessing over and there bloody well SHOULD BE! T_T my life feels incomplete this way.

come back to me, fandom love. please? pretty please? ;_;

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it would cost me about 120 bucks to have it looked at (with NO guarantee that files can be saved) and even if the data could be recovered I would still have to buy a new HD to have the files transferred - so all in all about $250. -.-"

so, even though it hurts, I don't think it's worth the money. I'm looking at 450GB of anime that is lost. or rather, a lot of time and downloading effort that is lost *sigh* I do have some back up on CD/DVD, and I know I can get most of what is gone either from

belina or download it again. It's just such a hassle. grrr

T_T there were some rare files on it, though, and if I can't get those back, I might ask if one of you has it and could burn it/send it to me. Of course I'd pay for the cds/dvds and shipping.

Fortunately, I've been keeping a list of all the anime I own and where it's located (fairly up to date, too), so I'm already done checking what is really lost (not pretty, I assure you). Now I'm waiting for

belina to let me know what I can get back from her and then it's going to be hardcore downloading time for me. ^^; internets beware.